your still in my heart...

RJ MAGSOMBOL! you mean a lot to me... were not talking. i stoped calling you billions of times and stoped busting up your phone when i really wanna talk to you and tell you whats sup and whats happening. its like lost the most important person of my life. my friend asked me do you wanna hurt and feel this pain once or keeping holding on and hurt every single day of your life and i answer if its for RJ, i'll hurt and feel this pain everyday cos i love him and only him no one else but i thought about it and i deserve my happiness too! so im tryna, but its not working, but it kinda is. letting go is hard cos the truth is i really dont. if we're meant to be we'll find our way; your my first love and your first love never dies. i dont think i can ever offially get over you but i can try, i really dont want too, i really just want you in my life again. but i need to respect your wishes and give you your timee. i know i'll see and talk to you again- hopefully soon. i love you and no matter what always will.

him

rj magsombol ): you will always be my first love, no matter what i love you too death and i dont think that'll change. even if you crushed my heart a billion of times, look im still here =/ you need you time and im trying to respect that but its soooo hard cos now that im ready to love you again you need your time to get your shit together and you i just dont know what to do and where to go from here... my heart hurts! i still want to be with you and i still love you... =/ this shit killing me. your going to be the death of me. im slowly dieing and hurting from this stupid pain only you can take away.

RJ MAGSOMBOL
We past 9 months, me made it to 2yrs & 2wks.

What happenes from here? Where do we go from here? Iduno. Time to move on? Maybe so. We try and we try to fix things between us but it seems like we can't. You dont call me, its been 4 days since i last heard your voice. Your birthday on friday October 16 and if I dont get to talk to you before that, we have nothing more and nothing left. But I will always love you, no doubt about that.

RJ Magsombol

If I hadn't met you, I wouldn't like you. If I hadn't liked you, I wouldn't love you. If I wouldn't love you, I wouldn't miss you. But I did, I do and I will. I'm not supposed to love you, I'm not supposed to care, I'm not supposed to live my life wishing you were there. I'm not supposed to wonder where you are or what you're doing, but I can't help it, cause I'm in love with you. It's not fair how your gone, and how you're moving on so fast, while I am still living in the past. I miss you a little, I guess you could say, a little too much, a little too often, and a little more each day.


But I’m going to smile and make you think I’m happy, I’m going to laugh, so you don’t see me cry, I’m going to let you go in style, and even if it kills me - I’m going to smile.